Episode 129 Discussion - 21st Nov 2012

Tujh Mein Rabb Dikhta hai, Yaara Main Kya karoon

Madhu's surrender to RK
Episode 129 Discussion - 21st Nov 2012

My take over the episode

Wow! Will rate it with an A. 

Episode starts with where it ended yesterday and RK telling her he can never let any bitterness affect her soul, as he wouldn't ever want that for his worst of his enemies and she is his wife to take care. Madhu is overwhelmed by RK's kindness. It is beyond any gratitude to be expressed and can only accept in resignation. 

The song beautifully expressed her recognition of his kindness that is so overwhelming that she is left with no choice but to surrender herself to him in all reverance for she sees God in him. 

Na Kuch Poocha, Na Kuch Maanga, Tune Dil se diya jo bhi diya

Na Kuch Bola, Na Kuch Tola, Muskuraake Diya jo bhi diya

Tu hi Tu chaya, Tu hi Apna Paraya,

Aur kuch na jaanu, Bas itna hi jaanu, 

Tujh Mein Rabb Dikhta hai, Yaara Main Kya karoon

Rabb ne bana di jodi

Dominant expression was the shringara mood of the episode. I liked the entire length of RK-MB's screen time together. From the lakeside, in the car, in the bedroom and in the morning...everything.

RK needed time to recover from his agitated mind post revealing Madhu everything about his scarred soul with deception. For a man who started knowing "Umeed is nothing but zeher", when Madhu starts showing that hope for kindness and healing in her eyes, RK steels himself to not fall into that trap of going by heart. For him seeking her support and kindness is surmountable to being weak and this he could never let it happen. When in room, he consumes alcohol to put himself to rest. And he asks Madhu not to give him any pincer looks at his behavior. He also decides to sleep on the couch instead of the bed to avoid her concerned glares.

I liked RK's registerating mood of Madhu's response towards him. And in the same manner I liked Madhu's accomodative manner and giving in mood towards RK with all her understanding of him but with the attendent clause of arrest at straying behavior (that of drinking to ease his agitated mind and him going away from the bed to couch to avoid all kinds of contact with Madhu), showing a certain amount of censure to him. She was being unobstrusive to him about her presence without failing to be expressive of her notice of his actions. It was certainly becoming a wedge to RK, securing him to something...Commendable.

And the best moments between the Rishbala are:

When she walks to the car and sits in resignation in that overwhelmed state as he sat already and won't talk to her. And he noticing her resignation and not being responsive to his call, he himself helps her, puts on the seat belt for her. Overwhelming Silence and probably pounding heart for both of them which might have given a lot of disquiet to each of them.

When he keeps noticing her bent eyes towards him, giving him all the privacy, all the space and yet being available to him for company in unobstrusive manner. He doesn't skip an opportunity to be mean towards her kindness, but he couldn't be mean as he wanted to. This behaviour reminded me of his sulking nights during Bappa track and the studio morning... the hospital morning and the morning after his return to home.

When she is scared to be caught by him as she covers him with that coverlet and yet forgetting herself and caressing his hair and reminding herself not to touch his cheek and yet take the pleasure of imaginatively doing it for him. She is so pleased to take care of him.

When he notices what she did for him, how alertful she is about his habits and being all careful in not getting caught while taking care of him and finally how she was able to repose peacefully in the happiness that he had slept off. It meant something to him, his peace giving her that smile on her face.

And I can't stop mentioning another scene...when she asked you got ready so early in the morning, he did not refrain from informing her that he needs to get away. How transparent was that...Wow!

Rest of the drama was all fun...I discard the 40 lakh cash drama, but taunts from Dipali, I will let them stay. I did not like Padmini's long palla like a saree draped by nowadays young women. What's with that long palla anyways, how are the ladies even going to work with that long palla. And I so wished that Sikky had forced himself on Dipali in their bedroom. I so wished to see her go "paagal". 

Padmini

I liked Padmini coming to check on Madhu. As a mother, it is her duty to her daughter and her wedded family to make that darshan. Unthinkable and unpardonable action has been committed for which Madhu will never be forgiven...Her daughter is going to be the target of her father's actions. So Padmini should come and check on her.  I liked that part very much. She was being mannered and protective also. If that drama leads her to take away Madhu with her, no problem at all. Because every action has a reaction ...Consequences have to be borne.

Liked how Padmini kept on answering back to Dipali and was just pleading with Radunce, her peer. Thank God! CVs paid attention to Padmini's dialogues and her body language and eye speak. Else there were chances they could have messed up while creating a melodrama.  

Padmini is one beautiful character, closer to Rishabh Kundra than Madhu in the nature of troubles she faced and is the epitome of loyalties towards societal institutions like marriage, motherhood. She can be explored further...unfortunately she is not the heroine. RK listening to that drama from above was good...He knows his Saasuma as self-respecting woman, she had disliked him initially, later prayed for his life, but it was certainly an opportunity here for him to see what his saasuma intended to do for Madhu by coming to her sasuraal. My only wish RK's mahaanta is not glorified types tomorrow, and it looks all reasonable if he happens to defend Padmini...

The time taken to heal by a hurt soul - An insight from my life experience to understand RK

@everyone who is doubting the vodka/liquor to be water.

It is liquor. Why the disbelief when Madhu clearly said Sharaab ?

And yes, RK, even now can take alcohol if he is not distracted enough to sleep peacefully in the night. It will be totally out of character for the man NOT TO DRINK just because he opened up to Madhu now. Before Madhu, alcohol was his partner and soother. Old habits die hard. I was happy when they showed him trying to take alcohol when during Ganapati track he was unable to sleep with all kinds of memories. Then happy times (just 4 to 6 days if we track the time) started and so no alcohol. In between he had a delirium in the hospital.  

Now this single day of Malik getting arrested was too long and too strenuous on his nerves...since daybreak, how many things he had to manage...so many fights, dramas and finally opening himself before Madhu's straight questions...For God's sake, the guy is not even fully recovered.

Give some space to the man... girls!! Overnight you want him to heal, want him to become Madhu's loverr, beau etc. The guy is just any other guy...trying to heal himself in his own manner.

He is licking his own wounds away from glares...and here it happens to be his wife. Atleast this time, unlike the studio exit/RK mansion entry, he did not misbehave with Madhu, atleast he did not  jerk her away like he did in the hospital. He was all in decent developments, answering her, getting away but in a open communicative manner with soft tones rather than completely closing himself. Just give the man his due time...At this rate of unrest in the thread...I would like to go and rest myself somewhere enjoying what they are showing.

Soundarya,

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Am wondering if I imagined it, SD, need your help! As a couple they have shared so much visceral grief together, it's most natural to reach out, but he needs that distance to be maintained to keep up the 'dead RK' facade and to deny himself the comfort of the realisation that he no longer is alone, he has somebody with him, and that he loves that someone.
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I can only explain you by telling you about myself.

When I went through my ending of first marriage...failing in every manner for me

I did not allow my family to reach me in any manner, when I was on my rebuild path. They used to literally get scared of me and yet worried for me. And I was like, I give a damn about you all...first things first, let me take care of myself. I used to stay alone then in Delhi, working...I rarely wanted to talk to them. Kept only in touch with material facts of mundane life...that everyone is well and no one is dead...sort of when Dad used to give once in a while update. I don't remember if I talked to my mother...My mother is strong too...she loves us extremely, but if she knows that kid is hurting and wants time and space, she gives it all. Probably that's how she got sick...keeping all that away from me...with all that turmoil...I did not feel anything when Mom got sick and hospitalized. When Dad was ill..again no feelings.

That period of hurt and healing took two years...where I had stripped myself of emotion and I did not want anyone's support...coz it was being weak according to me. Then, when Mom's sickness increased, I decided to go back to them in Hyderabad. By that time, because of my employment, my confidence was improved. I had taken a certification, which I passed with good marks, and I had taken up lot of professional extra studies in my free time. Basically dealing with customers at office, colleagues and boss interactions all helped into churning out the NEW Shridevi. I was confident, with clear voice...I was even amazed at myself. I could even fight with my boss. Such no nonsense character I had become with full of fire.

Sister tells me that change in me...she never liked. I told her its survival. One needs to change and reposition oneself. She could never understand. And these days as she goes through her low phase, she gets the right answers for her turmoil and needed strength from me.

When I had returned to my parents to take care of mom (at the request of my Dad in secretive manner so that Mom's esteem was not hurt), I just came as a daughter to take care without any emotion. However, when I saw my weak mother strutting towards me on station platform to receive me when I alighted from the train, the sight just arrested me. It melted me. I did not get teary, I did not hug them...those days, never used to allow anyone to touch me... I just looked on..at her without smile and just asked why did you come? She was full of beaming smile. So was Dad. That sight stayed in my memory...I erased it too ..to some extent so that I cannot remember what they did to my mind...but still I retained a part of that memory. That's what I call...subjecting yourself that you don't want to completely lose your old self...since it also means something to your family and your friends. They too have a hold on my life. So for them I slowly started controlling my fire...and another year of stay with them, healed me to become normal..another year from there allowed me to feel happy for people around me...

When I had loving people around me, I had so much apathy in me...when RK has no one around him from his previous life who could love him...then how does the need arise for him to stop on the path that he is treading. He happened to meet this woman who shows him hope...its not that he will pakdo her palla on day2. It will take time.

Ever read Crime and Punishment ? Remember the Siberia days of Raskolnikov and how he shuns Soniya his only hope...so much that he gets sick and finally comes to terms with her when she gets sick. Its takes time guys!  It takes time when the fight is all about one's existential question and not just a petty problem to deal with.